" Love is like being pleasantly surprised every minute of everyday. " - David Alan Bates

" You can't look dignified when you're having Fun. " - Wes Janson, Rogue Squadron in Solo Command

" Time to Nut Up or Shut Up. " - Tallahassee in Zombie Land

The Story

I don't know how this little here quote is supposed to be taken but the way I see it is that Nuts are Balls. To Nut Up is to "Have Some Balls" as they say, do something brave, courageous, go be a hero etc etc etc.

So to Nut Up or Shut Up is either go do something brave (rescuing damsels in distress always works) or shut up. If you aren't going to do it, don't talk about it as though you will. Heroes walk the talk so now Nut Up or Shut Up! XD

" The happiest Being on earth is one which has everything or one which knows not that it has nothing. " - David Alan Bates

" The past does cannot change, but just as we can choose to look to the future with hope so we too can choose to look at the past with fondness. " - David Alan Bates

but

" Even though the past is always left behind it can still pull a fast one on you. " - David Alan Bates

" Everything means something to someone, even if it's something as inconsequential as pebble in an ocean of rocks. " - David Alan Bates

" Beware of those who have no inkling to the true meaning of happiness, yet advises you to do what makes you happy. " - David Alan Bates

" For as God judges man, I am made in His image. But as God forgives, I am but Human. " - David Alan Bates

" Scientists say that good looks are a result of superior genes, then why is it that so many pretty girls and boys are so downright dumb? " - David Alan Bates

Suggested Reading

Looking Good: The Psychology and Biology of Beauty

http://www.jyi.org/volumes/volume6/issue6/features/feng.html

" The trouble with wanting to be caring is that logic gets in the way and vengeance gets put on hold. " - David Alan Bates

The Story

I want to get Bao Bao a nice Christmas gift, something that she would appreciate and something that would glare in her face and make her remember me whenever she sees it. I'm practical that way... (my parents would say I'm mean that way) :)

Anyway, I don't know if I should. I really really want to, but she still owes me a birthday present (we were both dirt poor that month, how I managed to buy her a RM600 digital camera I still haven't found out, but I am still suffering from that purchase) and from how it looks right now I'm not sure if she would still get it for me even though she promised that she would bundle it together with a Christmas gift.

We are growing apart and we only manage to really chat when she has a chip on her shoulder or she needs MY shoulder for support. You have no idea how good it feels to be needed and how shitty it feels when the tears on the shoulder dries off and become unneeded.

So yeah, if I get her one and she doesn't get anything for me not only would I have spent RM200+ (which I am saving up for something secret) and not to mention I have ANOTHER Christmas gift to buy (for someone secret) I would look like an utter fool.

But I really really want to be nice, I want to care and I want to love. But logically I shouldn't. And I want to take revenge for no other reason other than that being in my nature. I want to take revenge for being ignored for not being loved when I think it's my right, and most of all for still not getting my birthday present!

Sigh, how does one do all three. I doesn't seem possible or plausible so I guess it's impossible.